Saturday, January 23, 2010

Shame: A Question Mark

You know, I never understood that word. Maybe you can say that I´m shameless. I have never felt shame in my life. Something that I´m ashamed of. But..

Do I?

I made a lot of mistakes before, as I´m sure a lot of you has. To er is human. And being a fellow human myself, I´ve made my share.

I never regret. I don´t then, I don´t now.

If I could do it over again, I would have chosen the same path because I like the way I am now, and how my life is.

I have made the mistake of indulging my stubbornness.
I have made the mistake of indulging my desire.
I have made the mistake of being ignorant.
I have made the mistake of believing what is so obviously wrong is right.

If I have to count the deadly sins, I would have undoubtedly strike PRIDE and LUST and a little bit of Gluttony and Sloth.

I should practice more virtues instead!

Vice Virtue
Lust Chastity
Gluttony Temperance
Greed Charity
Sloth Diligence
Wrath Patience
Envy Kindness
Pride Humility

A wrong perception, a wrong interpretation.

In the end, maybe I am ashamed of how wrong my judgement can be.

I´m at peace with it.

There´s a saying that, I don´t know if I had quoted it before, but I´ll quote it again.

"A person is never good if they weren´t bad before".

I was ignorant then. I try not to be now.

With my honest, sincere, lekkere, mooie, good-natured, heart of gold piggy with me, I´m sure I´ll be an angel in no time!

I have everything I needed :)

In a way, I´m changing. I´m more humble, less idiotic and a whole lot clear minded. Like I´ve said before, what else can I ask for when I have my kleine vetje with me? :)

-Keeping my finger crossed!-

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